It's too hard and too painful to dream so you're done fighting. But you can't be done. You can't give up now. You see, sometimes God delays his blessings to us for a reason. Maybe He thinks you're not ready to handle all that power. May He's just taking His time, waiting, watching, to see how far you're willing to go, to see how much you're willing to sacrifice. Maybe your appointed time has not come yet. But it will definitely come. Just because it hasn't happened for you yet doesn't mean it never will. You just have to keep fighting until it's your turn to receive God's immense blessings.
I'm not better than you. I don't work harder than you. If He can bless me, He can bless you.
Just keep looking ahead and keep believing. You deserve it. IT will come to you...eventually.
Happy New Month